Heavy for the Holidays

*the title, courtesy of Milk Toof. huhu.

Since it's holiday, I'm gaining weight! Nothing new about it, actually.

And I guess, it's the time of the month again, pimples are gathering on my face. It's like they are celebrating the occasion. Thank you very much guyz, appreciate it so much! What occasion, you figure out yourself. But pimple is indeed a friend. When we're stressed out, it will never leave us alone, it will always be there for us. That's a quality of a friend right? Think about it okay. >.<

It's almost the same things that ever happened to me on every holiday except for few things. Like always; gaining weight, and then never ending complaint of why is this happening to me? That's the nature of human I guess (don't want to be sounded sexist here. teehee.)

Since all of my friends around here are busy, I pretty much stay at home doing what I do best, attaching to my lappie, like right now and playing with my nieces and nephew. Well, of course there are times where my father complained that I need to get away from my lappie. I know I know, I should try some other hobby and leave this unhealthy habit. Well, it is unhealthy since it only contributes more fat to my body. How many days already I've been like this and imagine how much fat I've gained! -_-"

Well, other than that is of course it's my friends' weddings! It's like an alert to me to wake up and grow up! I mean here is to start thinking of the future! But there's a voice inside, says that I'll do fine. And the voice sounds so sweet telling me that I don't have to worry, it's okay not to get married early, like my friends, because one day I'll find my knight who deserve each other (me and him) and we'll live happily ever after. It's worth the wait. We'll see about that. Thank you sweet voice! You're so sweet! heh.

This holiday is pretty special, because since I'm going to do my practicum at school this coming new semester, I received pretty good things from my parents. hehe. My mom bought me a new watch and my father bought me a pair of leather shoes. These things are very important to become a teacher. ahem. Note again that I'm only doing my practicum not a real teacher yet. Imagine when become one later but of course, my first salary will go for my parents and family.

The next cool thing that I'm about to receive is of course something really special and it's big! huhu. I really can't wait! Praying hard for that. But I have to be patient because I have to wait for a while to get a brand new one. ehe.

Whatever it is, I have to lose a lot of weight! And I need to get out from home now and do some jogging! It's about 4.30 now, I have to go and get ready. I'm going jogging at 5. Not to brag about it but I'm going to Bukit Besar which it's very challenging to jog to the top. huhu. We'll see how it goes. Btw, McD is nearby so maybe I can stop for Prosperity afterwards. gagagaga.

Haha. Till next time, GO OUT AND HAVE A HEALTHY LIFE! =D

Baby's Names

I am very excited when talking about having children. My own children of course.

But let's see first. To have a baby, we must go through a marriage first just to have legal sex afterwards. Woohoo! Okay, let's not go to that extend, shall we.

Then, let's have babies! Boy, I'm so into this!

Since, I'm so single right now, I can't imagine any guy to have my baby with. ahem.

So, back to the back up plan, adopting a child!

Alright, so I'm planning to adopt a child in the near future? This is quite crazy. Why? Because I'm still young? Well, that's not quite a good reason. I'd love to become a mother at young age. I think this way I'll become more responsible towards everything in my life and appreciate my family even more.

Sounds almost nonsense, but that's the truth. And I really want to do this. I need to work hard from now on, for that.

Hey, guess what, I even have already come out with names for my babies. Ehe. Quite dramatic but it's really fun doing it. Okay, you can call me loser, pathetic or whatever, cause I don't mind!

So, I decided to adopt a baby girl and the possible name that I could come out with is Kayla Zara. Kayla means the wise child and Zara, you know one of the famous collections around here.

If it ever will happen to me to have another child in my life which I hope it's a boy this time, I'd name him Khalief Ferdous. I'm in love with the name Khalief! Khalief means the leader and Ferdous is the name of paradise. So, come together, the leader of the paradise, something like that.

Guess, I'm in love with K all the way! The names of the babies are the proof.

For those who think it is nonsense, well think again, or maybe you should try doing this.

Take sometime and come out with the list of names. You'll be very excited to have babies one day or maybe ask your girlfriends or boyfriends to get married right away! Haha. Well, that maybe too much. I got too carried away. Ehe.

Happy naming your babies! ;D

** Thinking of you...*

"I guess I am thinking of you..."

** Dear Big Sis **

Dear sis,

I know I'm only your youngest sister but I have feelings too. I know "air dicincang takkan putus" but sometimes I couldn't stand you. You hurt me (not physically) a lot. I have no choice but to accept your treating towards me. It hurt so much you know. It's been my dream to have siblings who care about me and I can share almost everything with you guyz, but I wasn't lucky enough I guess. Maybe I was born to be independent since I'm away from my parents.

I know you care about your life more than anything in the world, and now you're dating somebody but at least, please don't ignore us. Sometimes, I feel very lonely and I really wish we can share the girl-talk with you but I don't think it will happen between us. Not in a million years I guess. And yeah, you can brag about your rich boyfriend because I don't care bout it. But if that makes you happy, go on, brag about it. All I ask is some attention from you and care more about my feelings. Is that too much to ask? If it is, just forget about my wish.

~Your baby sis

>> J, is that you? <<

I've known this guy since I was very young. He's just a normal human being just like me. In my own eyes, I saw something in him, something special. But it happened in the past and I tried to deny everything, my feelings towards him but now I realize I can't lie to myself. I do still care about him. I know he's a jerk before, but now what I can see, he has changed. Totally changed! What hurts me the most is the fact that he has girlfriend and I think he decided to settle down. They are pretty happy now, I can see that. Until now, I'd still hold to his remarkable statement where I should find some one better than him. Well, guess this is what I'm doing right now. I'm in the search for the right one. Sometimes, I'd find it very depressing for the fact that I keep bumping to the wrong guy, and he ends up with the right one. This is not fair.

Today is his birthday and I'm sure his having a blast right now. And I'm very sure that he will receive more than just cupcakes this time. I know his girlfriend will take a good care of that. He's happy and I should be happy too. I'm still his friend and still friend with his mother. Gosh, I miss her. It's pretty amazing how easy I impressed his mom. Or maybe I'm a type of daughter-in-law material. Haha.

Owh well, this feeling should go away. I'm okay now. Positive! But I'm sure I'd feel less J (don't want to admit it) if I find my own knight. I know he's somewhere out there, still searching just like me. A path of true love is never easy. And I know if I keep on the right track, I'd be always delightful and I am very grateful to be in the circle of good people.

Till next time...
XOXO~

.:: Singles Club! ::.

erm, juz take note on the Singles Club k. ;D

This entry was created after I was informed, my two hot friends, Waed and Mimi ARE NOW SINGLES! Yeah, trust me when I say THEY'RE HOT!
I know them from childhood. They are my friends from my primary school. I always felt jealous to see them back them and still admiring them till now. Some people are very lucky to be born with natural beauty and would look good in every angle. (T_T)
Unfortunately, I don't have their pictures. They're not just physically attractive but they also have the BRAINS! Wow, I am so into this! LOL.
What I would say about this is that even though they were so crazy in love before this and what happens now?
Owh well, the path for true love is never easy. So, hang on there guyz! Join me in this journey! I'd be here for you guyz! Yiehaww! (excited pelik aku ni)

Anyway, everyone is welcome but make sure you're 100% single okay! *wink*

.:: Loneliness ::.

"Heyya, just call me whenever you're lonely. Tell me about everything. I'd try my best to be a good listener. Mark my words."

.:: It's a shitty day! ::.

Damn! I think I'm starting to lose my beauty! Like seriously! Arghhh! My face is not satisfying and I'm out of shape! I did some exercises sometimes but still I love the pleasure of eating! I can't help but to crave for something oily, fatty, etc etc. This has to be stopped! =(

There's a song introduced by my cousin, Karimah Kamilah. The song is called Shitty Day by Soko. It's a cute song, and it is basically a song about what a girl feels in every relationship. Pretty much like me I guess. Here it is.

Shitty Day

I hate myself today.
I don’t know what’s happening to me.
I hate my face today.
I think I look so shitty.

I have some sweat everywhere.
I’m not even shaved.
My hair all greasy.
I look disgusting.

My eyes are glued.
My lips are chaffed.
My legs are prickling.
And plus I’m stinky today.

How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not what you expected.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Maybe I should put some makeup,
And find some crazy outfits.
But I am very tired today
And I don’t care if I’m not pretty.

Should be like these girls,
Skinny and great all the time.
I’m still wearing my slippers
And eat all the candies at home.

I should sleep more,
And stop going out everyday.
I should focus more,
And stop complaining today.

Tell me, How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not so perfect.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Tell me, how can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me,
And I am gonna cry.