Saturday, February 20, 2010

It's Okay If You Want To Get Married...


My best friend revealed to me not long ago, that some one asked her to get married. Some kind of proposed I guess.

I had a shock of my life!

I don't even know that guy, she just told me like that, it's indeed shocking!

So, I was being a total jerk. I told her all the excitements that she'd be missing if she gets married at this age.

Not to be jealous or anything, but I was simply being selfish. All I was thinking was that, "How am I going to go shopping if she really gets married right now?" or or or "I can't hang out with her anymore after this, not after she got married with I don't know who that guy is!"

I was thinking straight. I'm sorry.

I should think more on her side. She seemed puzzled as well. And I shouldn't be telling all those things that totally not helping her decision. Well, it does help but it is just not it.

From now on, I'll be more rational and supportive. To my dearest best friend, I really really really love you and if you really really really think and have already given a deep thought about my opinions about it, I think it's okay if you want to get married now. Like you said, it's a big big decision.

I don't wanna be such a jerk friend, and keep you from what you really want. Follow your heart, and most importantly, solat istikarah if you have to. hee.

Since we'll be graduating soon (well, I have another semester ahead), I don't see it as a problem anymore to think about marriage. Maybe your time has come.

As for me, I'll be fine. I'll be your fairest bridesmaid, if it going to happen this soon laa . teehee,

So, here I even have a picture of a perfect wedding outfit. I'm sure you will love it as much as I am. hee.

Credit picture to tealovecoffee. :D

I think you'll like it in green rite? hehe.


Thursday, February 18, 2010

First Love

Everyone will have the experience with the first love.

Some might get very lucky, end up with the first love and still going strong.

I envy you people.

At this very moment, I just realize that my first love is truly my first love.

What I mean here is, I just realize how strong my first love is. I even pat myself at the back, admiring myself for still having the same feeling for about 11 years. With the same guy.

He was my first love.

I still remember how naive I was back then but still I was able to like, admire, or love, this guy.

I thought I've already moved on, but I guess it's never easy to walk away.

I bumped into him recently, and we even met at our so-called reunion. Well, I remember I was very cool, we talked like two old friends who haven't met for a long time. Inside my heart, only God knows what!

He looked stunning like always. Well, depends on how you perceive stunning as this is full of biased! You have to understand this situation.

Erm, I guess I'm okay, nothing to feel sad about, it is all in the past now. It's time for a new chapter. Looking back once a while is okay, but don't get too carried away, it will only do us harm.

Wait, nothing to feel sad about eh? Maybe a little bit.

Well, at least we're still friends, that's important.

So, all the best to all of us. Good luck in every thing you do.

And as for me, it's time for a new love. I will keep searching and searching until I get fed up. I don't mind. Life is just cruel like that.

Words of wisdom: "
You don't just stop loving someone; either you never did or always will."

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Too Scared

It's been a while.

Been pretty busy.

Today, I was shocked with the news I heard from kampung.

One of my neighbours passed away late evening yesterday. Innalillah. Al- Fatihah.

This is very shocking.

And I can't accept any kind of shocking news from kampung, I will become too scared, don't feel comfortable just like right now.


I'm worried about my family; parents at home. So damn scared. If anything happens to them, I don't think I can go on with my life...

I'm too scared now until I can't sleep, I can't close my eyes.

God, help me, I need more strength.

I don't like this feeling.

And I just wanna home now~