I'm back! :D

HAHAHA!

I just think this is very funny.
I really want to make this blogging stuff possible for me, but everytime I read some one else's blog, I feel very lowly of myself.
I mean come on, every one seems to have a lot of stuff to write and it is always interesting to read, not like mine. Seriously dude!
Anyhows, I really want to make this possible but I have to make this blog not as lame as before.
I'll try my best! Wish me luck! :D

Teman Sejati

Currently, I've been listening to nasyid songs.

It's really soothing and it gets us closer to Him.

It is when we are sick and tired of all sorts of contemporary love songs, if you know what I mean.

So, I remembered this old nasyid song, Teman Sejati by Brothers.

Click here.

This song is really something. It's about some one who is looking for a true friend as a companion for life.

True friend in this context is of course a wife or husband. I like it when it is referred as "teman yang sejati".

So, here I am, searching for a true friend to go through this sacred battle, to achieve happiness in this world and of course in Here-after.

Still searching...

"ku mencari-cari teman yang sejati buat menemani perjuangan suci..."

HELLO!

It's a been a while.....

I don't know what had possessed me lately, but I just can't concentrate on what to write for this blog. A lot of things are going on in my life, but still I didn't feel like to blog about it, it's not I have lost my interest towards writing, it is just plain laziness. HAHAHAHA.

Alright, I feel like blogging again so I guess I will try to write about anything interesting in my life right now.

At the age of 23, I can't believe I'm in the middle of the situation where I have to think about my future husband already! I mean, it's a big thing, I never thought it would happen this fast, but hey, it's happening now! I'd love to blog about it.

So, stay tuned for my next post, yaw!

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah


I MISS YOU CHEK..... ;(
we will meet again one day...

Grown-up Conversation

Just recently, I had this conversation with one of my friends. This friend of mine, she likes to share her experience with her previous boyfriends, and her current boyfriends as well. Yeah, I got that right, boyfriend with the s. Fyi, she is a mixed Sabahan. I envy her body. Beautiful front and back (well, at least I think so la). What more can a girl ask for? :P

So, she shared with me how she deals with her boyfriends (how many let's not talk about it k) and I bluntly told her "wow, how I wish I can be like you!" after hearing her stories. Errrr, to think about that again, no thank you. I like myself right now better. I just wanted to be sounded cool I guess. ppft.

Then, I innocently asked her, "what about if kantoi later in the future?"

And she said something like this, "well, first comes first, there's no such thing as happily ever after. S**t happens. Just see la what will happen later. Meanwhile, let's enjoy the ride."

The interesting part is, when she wanted to pass me some boy who want to date her but she rejected him because of some reason.

"Are you kidding me? No, thank you!" That was my answer. haha.

So, I asked again, why did she reject that guy. Then she said, "well, i'm not interested in Malay guyz. They are not loyal, not matured, treat their gf very badly and bla bla bla..."

*crickets*

Erm, okay..

So, Malay guyz are like that. And it even occurred to me that this could be the reason why I'm still single. gulp.

Whatever it is, I'm not the type of overgeneralized person. I believe she just happened to meet with the bad ones, it doesn't mean that every Malay man is like that. right right?

Owh well, it has been nice listening to her story. There were still more, but I can't share everything here. heheheh.

What Divides Us Women...

The first thing that came up to our mind (women) when we heard some guy is dating this particular girl is, "Is she covered up or not?" or in BM, "dia pakai tudung ke tak?"

Nowadays, this question becomes common among us and it actually divides us women into these groups which are covered up and of course not covered up.

So, which group are you in?

I missed out one group.There's also certain women who choose to be in between; to go covered up and not at the same time.

The thing is, we are judged by what we are wearing. Our tudung of course.

As for me, so far Alhamdulillah, I never went outside without any selendang covered my head. I pray hard on this one because I'm trying my best to stay istiqamah on covering up.

I have a lot of friends who are covered up and in fact the majority of my friends are covered up. Probably because I came from a religious school.

I hate it when people judge us by our tudung or selendang. We people who covered up are holding the image, the clean image everywhere we go. The free hair women are always referred to the not so nice attitudes.

But to tell the truth, there are no such things anymore.

The vanity is everywhere, covered up or not, we women (or human;to be in general) are always exposed to the vanity side.

I'm not a good muslimah even though I'm covered up. I'm not happy with that and always pray hard for hidayah... :(

I've been thinking of life in Here-after a lot lately.

And I'm thinking what will happen if God takes my live when I'm not ready like right now? Because to count all my ibadah right now, it makes me wanna cry so hard....

Just covering our hair is not enough! There are a lot more of things we women need to do!

Therefore, I have decided, I should read a lot on spiritually inspired books. Currently, I'm reading this book "You can be the happiest women in the world". Just about time (thank you PD!), I was looking for something good to read, rather than to read those fiction books, I'm so happy to have one of the copies right now. I just start reading on it, I'd probably put up a review on it later on in the future. InsyaAllah.

Covered up or not, let's together we try our best, pray hard, look for hidayah as much as we can. And after all, it's never too late to do the right thing now. InsyaAllah.

p/s, I never believe in "heaven can wait", it only works on narrow-minded people.

It's Okay If You Want To Get Married...

Hurmmm...

My best friend revealed to me not long ago, that some one asked her to get married. Some kind of proposed I guess.

I had a shock of my life!

I don't even know that guy, she just told me like that, it's indeed shocking!

So, I was being a total jerk. I told her all the excitements that she'd be missing if she gets married at this age.

Not to be jealous or anything, but I was simply being selfish. All I was thinking was that, "How am I going to go shopping if she really gets married right now?" or or or "I can't hang out with her anymore after this, not after she got married with I don't know who that guy is!"

I was thinking straight. I'm sorry.

I should think more on her side. She seemed puzzled as well. And I shouldn't be telling all those things that totally not helping her decision. Well, it does help but it is just not it.

From now on, I'll be more rational and supportive. To my dearest best friend, I really really really love you and if you really really really think and have already given a deep thought about my opinions about it, I think it's okay if you want to get married now. Like you said, it's a big big decision.

I don't wanna be such a jerk friend, and keep you from what you really want. Follow your heart, and most importantly, solat istikarah if you have to. hee.

Since we'll be graduating soon (well, I have another semester ahead), I don't see it as a problem anymore to think about marriage. Maybe your time has come.

As for me, I'll be fine. I'll be your fairest bridesmaid, if it going to happen this soon laa . teehee,

So, here I even have a picture of a perfect wedding outfit. I'm sure you will love it as much as I am. hee.

Credit picture to tealovecoffee. :D

I think you'll like it in green rite? hehe.


Nevertheless,

FRIENDS FOREVER! =)