There are bruises on my heart. The old ones are about to disappear, then there comes the new ones. I thought that I was strong enough to mend but at this very moment I doubt it. Sometimes I feel so weak. God knows best and I believe I'll find the silver lining in between one day.
I realize that in the past time, I never really gave a deep thought about everything that ever happened in my life. Now, it is the time. The time to think of what should and should not be done.
I don't want to think of love matters anymore because if he's the one for me, he will come to me and he should know how much I mean to him. This is just a generic statement.
So, here I am, trying to get all the strength in this world to get through this life. I have to do this!
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8 years ago
yup U have to do it! be strong! :hugs:
ReplyDeleteU know what I'm having a big crush with someone over 3 years..It's very painful experience at the same time sweet!, but I never lose hope..and I hope U will do the same okay :)
thanx.
ReplyDeletewow, admiring a guy for three years alredi??
i dunno if i cud be that patient...
have you told that guy that you like him? i mean like him A LOT i'd say? huhu.
I don't like him..Durrah I LOVE HIM!
ReplyDeletehe knew it..but a high achiver students's attitude is different from normal n..die ckp nk abiskan blaja..which is in 2011. huhu..I just hoping that he will accept me..or I will die in depression! haha
Can U imagine..he is in Jpan and me here alone in M'sia..how's hard it can be.
p/s: sowi membebel kat sini lak :)
cepat2 panggil paramedik.ada hati lebam. ;D
ReplyDeletegosh...touching indeed...
ReplyDeletehey, i wanna share a story..
there's a guy who i used to have a crush on...
the same age, he has this ambition, he said he wanted to further his studies abroad and become successful one day. gosh, i loved to hear his stories and sooner i thought he is the guy for me. but then, he said to me we all have long ways to go, and he said he wanted to concentrate on his studies. i was cool about that until he told me one day, he found another girl...
SO, i was very upset..he said he wanted to concentrate on his studies but then he met another girl..God, i felt so stupid, almost everyday he's always been on my mind...and the interesting part is, i met his mom and i can tell, she likes me so much. we even exchanged our numbers. well, some good memories there...
and yeah,just suddenly, he gave me a hint and told me bout this girl and he fell for the girl and told me i deserved someone better and you know the lame break up lines, it's not your fault and bla bla bla......
i saw the picture of the girl...well, i shud not be talking about her...she's out of this mess...anyway, the other interesting part is, he came to talk to me juz recently, thru ym, he said he couldn't go abroad and how sad he was..
i dunno, part of me was quite happy but i can't be cruel,i told him all kind of advices and tried to comfort him and he listened to it! i was pretty happy with the fact that he turned to me when he needed some one, i feel needed for the first time! haha! but then that's all laa...i'm happy to be his buddy...
wow, i got too carried away..haha...
hey hey, my point here is that if that guy of urs, if he loves you, he wouldn't be using the excuses such as still studying and stuff..from my POV, i think he's still confused and he's just not ready yet. if i were you, i would be making a clearance, something like this, tell him about my feeling, tell him if he has glimpse of any other girl in his life, just tell..and make him tell his feeling towards me truthfully. this is a serious business. we're talking about a three year period of crush here. it's a big deal! you need to know what's going on in his mind about the two of u. if he still needs time, he has the whole life, but if he has some one else, it's up to u then wat to do...
yaya, i believe u're a strong girl. u can do this! ;D
p/s, penat seyh membebel...ahaha...
eh eh, abg izzat pon ade laa.. maluuu..ahahaaha..
ReplyDeleteeh...why u put this in your comment..make a new entry.good story lor.I have lots of things to say about this in a boy POV.tapi malas nak type.hehe
ReplyDeleteahaha...ni sesaja nak berkongsi pengalaman...
ReplyDeleteand u missed some part from yaya's side...
eh, kalo u nak berkungsi citer, bleyh je type sini..taip gak cane2 pon..hehe...
Durrah Thanks! :hugs:
ReplyDeleteI'm touched Durrah nk kongsi cite, nway I agree with ur statement and ia adalah kata2 semangat buat-ku! :D
:Izzat, lorh..malu seh..abg seniour ku tahu!.meh kongsi le pape yg patut kami nk dgr jugak..betul Durrah?
betol tuh yaya! ;D
ReplyDeletehehe..no prob...
but then rasa malu plak publish citer ni...
kisah ni da agak lama...
nak lupa je seme, life goes on...
cepat copy paste citer ni, nanti kite nak delete...eheee....